What are your greatest fears?
Death? Loss? Loneliness? Silence?
All of the above.
I'm afraid to die. But not the death part of it, the waiting to die part. I'm so scared to get super sick. I'm neurotic and semi-hypocondric about it. There are so many people in my life that are struggling from various diseases and I'm always thinking about when i'ts my turn. Because it's bound to happen.
I have a great fear of being abandoned. To be forgotten. To be left behind. To be the second choice. I'm always on my tippy toes and I'm always prepared fot it. Got my defensive wall up, just in case. Telling you that I don't care - but I always do.
I'm also scared to lose a dear one. To one day wake up and someone is gone. My parents, my friends, my relatives..all my loved ones.
I'm not scared to be alone, but I'm scared of loneliness. I've been lonely before and I'm afraid to be again.
I'm scared to be honest. In case I look stupid or say the wrong thing.
I'm scared of the dark. I have a fear of the unknown and what I can't see.
I'm afraid to be ordinary. I'm afraid to get stuck. To stand still. To seem boring to others. I know I'm not, but I'm scared that I one day will be.
But I know my fears and I try to accept them - acknowledge them. Because it's okay to have fears, we all have them - big or small. As long as they don't control us. We need to acknowledge something exists, in order to be able to face it.
Simple as that? No - but nothing is simple.
This is life.